I've got social anxiety disorder.

It means I can hardly go to school, I struggle at work, I can't go out with my friends and I cry for hours before meeting my boyfriend. I'm 17 and its ruining my life.

Whenever I try to tell people, they don't understand and think I'm being shy or attention seeking. It's not that at all, I have an anxiety disorder and I'm scared half to death.

When I get all nervous and flappy, people who know me just shout at me and tell me not to be silly and people who don't know me start asking all sorts of questions and drawing attention to me, making it worse.

I wish people understood, or that I could find a way to explain it to them, because its horrible and I hate it. I just can't do anything about it.