For the first time in a long time I've cut up my arm. I don't crave the pain...and I honestly don't know why I did it. Basically I've been depressed since,...well my earliest memory of wanting to hurt myself was when I was 11 and while sat in school I imagined stabbing myself. 22 now,and I've harmed before,those scars are old and faded. I have been to a doctor before,but I always end up not saying anything about how I really feel and come across as all nice and friendly,as though there's nothing wrong. I want to go and show these scars and say how I really feel,but if I get asked if I'm just feeling down or a bit upset it's gonna really p**s me off but I won't say anything. Any advice at all? Or what you experienced going to a doctor about this?